you: hey it’s friday! let’s go do something!
me: I can’t I’m busy
you: doing what??
me:
mydiabetessecret
I just found out that I have retina damage from 14 years of uncontrolled A1C levels. When I found out my first thought was to go to a psychologist to talk about it. I think I’ve been depressed for years because I’ve been so scared of what diabetes can do to me. With diabetic retinopathy, it just feeds my fears even more. I am so scared of what is going to happen in ten years, will I still be able to walk? Will I still have all of my limbs? Will I have a heart attack or a stroke? My friends make fun of me because I think of the worst but I just don’t know how to think of it any other way. Diabetes affects my decisions of having children, what career to choose and how far ahead I should plan. I feel so alone sometimes because nobody understands how that feel. I don’t even know if I’m going to have insulin with this new health policy thing. Obamacare has helped me so much and now I’m just in constant fear again of not having health insurance.